I have doubts and questions
Asking is not a failure of faith. The Quran records the angels asking a hard question and being answered rather than silenced, and it repeatedly invites people to look and to reason.
Sabeel — educational summary
What Allah says
Quran
وَإِذْ قَالَ إِبْرَٰهِـۧمُ رَبِّ أَرِنِى كَيْفَ تُحْىِ ٱلْمَوْتَىٰ ۖ قَالَ أَوَلَمْ تُؤْمِن ۖ قَالَ بَلَىٰ وَلَـٰكِن لِّيَطْمَئِنَّ قَلْبِى ۖ قَالَ فَخُذْ أَرْبَعَةً مِّنَ ٱلطَّيْرِ فَصُرْهُنَّ إِلَيْكَ ثُمَّ ٱجْعَلْ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ جَبَلٍ مِّنْهُنَّ جُزْءًا ثُمَّ ٱدْعُهُنَّ يَأْتِينَكَ سَعْيًا ۚ وَٱعْلَمْ أَنَّ ٱللَّهَ عَزِيزٌ حَكِيمٌ
And [mention] when Abraham said, "My Lord, show me how You give life to the dead." [Allāh] said, "Have you not believed?" He said, "Yes, but [I ask] only that my heart may be satisfied." [Allāh] said, "Take four birds and commit them to yourself. Then [after slaughtering them] put on each hill a portion of them; then call them - they will come [flying] to you in haste. And know that Allāh is Exalted in Might and Wise."
Reference · Quran 2:260 — translation by Saheeh International
What this is saying
In this verse Ibrahim asks Allah to show him how the dead are brought to life. He is asked whether he believes, and he says yes — but that he wants his heart to be at rest. The question is not treated as unbelief, and it is answered.
Sabeel — educational summary
Something small you can do
- Write the question down plainly. Vague unease is harder to resolve than a clear question.
- Ask someone knowledgeable rather than a search engine.
- Accept that some answers take time, and that not knowing yet is a normal place to stand.
Alongside this
You are not expected to fix this today.